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During this talk, Fyn told me to take 10 steps back from my work and look what i already have created. Seing my work trough this more open perspective made me think what if i just show the work i already made and add a little to it? Also my idea for the deadline was way to much work than i imagined and i wouldnt be able to do enough research on the fashion industry.
Talking with Fyn about how my work is already a beautiful piece on his own helped me so much!

Fyn gave me a tip to only focus on one topic, and write the zine/poem about this specific topic.
So i was thinking of writing my own personal experience with fashion and ways of dressing up.

Documenting our work.

Laura and I met up on school on friday, which was an self study day. We talked about how we want present for the end presentation. We came to the conclusion that both of our work is focused on the topic comfort.
During this talk i realized my topic is comfort and i now know what to write my poems about for my end work.

Laura and I were inspired by the class of Fyn we had earlier that week. In this class we did this exercise where we needed to write down the words we could write down while listening to a story Fyn was telling. This inspired us to the exact same thing but then with our own story about comfort and written in our own languages, Dutch and German. The words we understand or find interesting we will write down, and based on those words we will put them together and start our presentation by saying those words as a poem.

Sandim assigment,
Ask 20 questions about your work. and present in class.

During the questions i asked in class i realised i might have do to more research on why i wrote those specific words on the masks.

I came up with these questions i asked myself; Why is this my personalitly? When did i create my personalilty?
While thinking of the answer to these questions i tought it was a nice idea to show how i created my personality and when i started to become the person i am now, referenced to the fashion topic i worked on ealier.

Then i decided to dive deeper in my own interest i figure out what im really intreted in and what inspires me (reference to the time line assigment ''think of 10 things that inspire you''

So, during this research of my self i came to find out fashion and way of dressing always ahd a big impact on me.
I tried to make clothes with the drawing i printed on fabric.

After mindmapping my research of were my personality arise and where i was more in comfort with myself.
I realized it all started by wearing clothes that i felt comfort in and clothes that suit myself as a person instead of wearing the main stream clothes that everyone wears.

Because of that, i got the idea of chancing my old clothes to one big blanket. My old clothes repesent the time where i was stepping out of my comfort zone by wearing clothes that are not the mainstream trend. And because of chancing the way i dressed i felt so much stronger and I allowed myself to be more myself and not shy anymore.

Zine;

I wanted to make the zine like a poetry booklet, i am very interested in poetry and because of the lessons of Fyn and Wolf i got some very helpful tips to write poetry more easier.

I chose poetry to write down the story behind my work because i like that you can let your imagenation think of ways to interpretend the work.

I started writing down my story in dutch and english and then highlighting the words i find most important. I also searched on references and synoniemen of some words to create metaphores.

Poem Dutch:

Beste comfort,

Ik heb jou gevonden in mijn kleding,
diep verscholen was ik zoekend naar een mening.

Een gedachtegang waar ik verdwaald in raakte,
wat ook mijn eigen personaliteit bewaakte.

Jij bent ontsnapt en de verlegenheid is voorbij,
ik voel me los en ik loop vrij.

Volkomen vernieuwd met ander zicht,
Ben ik opwaarts gaan varen naar een nieuw soort licht.

Ik draag je vanaf nu met me mee,
door de dagen, maanden, jaren en langs de zee.

Je hebt me gevonden door anders te kleden,
door jou ben ik Marie
En Marie is het heden.

This was a tactic Wolf told us. The assigment was, to write a letter towards our material. I choose to write a letter towards my topic, comfort.

First, i tried sewing the pieces of clohting together by hand, to get an image of how i want my work to look like.

Then i made the layout of all my old chlotes that i gatered and starting sewing them with my mothers sewmachine.

I didnt like the chaos by the use of so many diffrent colours, so i tried a few ways to let them all blend in together with some left over fabrics.

First i tried bleaching the fabrics:

The bleach didnt really gave the effect i was hoping for, so i tried painting the fabric.

Both spray paint and paint adjust by a roller;

The right part i painted with the roller

The left part i spray painted

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First layer of paint adjust by a roller;

Laura and I tried diffrent ways of documenting our work,

First we tried a method we learned in Fyns class

My first idea was to make something to combine all classes together,
I tried this in a way of using posters and drawings i made for each class. I wanted to combine wolfs class with my material i choose (fabric), and so decide to print my drawing etc, on fabric;

Notes i made during the talk with Fyn;

Sandim gave us the assigment to ask 20 questions about your work and present this in class.

I was thinking of what i wanted to show and what work could help me with my research about myself. For Juans class we had to make a timeline work almost every week based on 10 / 20 interest. I choose to show the work i made earlier this semester, where i devided myself in 4 different personalities.

I choose to show this work in Sandims class to get to know more about myself and where those 4 personalities came from.

I liked the effect the roller gave to the fabric, so I decided to use that method

Poem English:

Dear comfort,

My mind came into my body and grew thorns,
Rip everything apart what before was worn.

A train of thoughts which i got lost in,
And hid my personality under my skin

Only from the outside can my inner self arise,
While not letting others criticize

You invited me into your zone,
And broke down my old clothing stone for stone.

I am more open and i feel free,
Creating a forest where care will shine through the trees

I like the way you styled me and i allow you to stay,
If you speak the words yourself, yes i may

Kind regards,
Marie Veldhuizen

Mid-term presentation:
From the feedback of the mid-term i started refelcting on myself and why i choose such a tpoic where i excually do not know anything about. I realized i had to take a few steps back and start working what i have close by, for example; things out ofmy garden, my self as a person, my interest, my hobbies etc.